
At other times, its you looking back at the same you that was! "Oh...how energetic and enthusiastic I used to be...how well organised I was.....how fit I was.....God knows where I got that kind of motivation from"...etc.you are your own idol then...Probably when you are done with inspiring yourself enough, you look outside for more.Else believe it or not...You are NOT BOTHERED!!
Strangely ,everything works and moves in phases. There's always a high and low for everything...be it your markets and economy, the weather and temperature, the desire to eat spicy and then sweet, the interest in comedy movies and the sad/love stories...up down..up down. sounds silly..> movie/market/food/people.doesn't it?
Everything in your life gets a piece of footage here...
The problem is not with this swing, but with the fact that when it's a low....the world doesn't know! And if it knows....it's anyway late.
But when you are trying to come up the hill.....the world wants to know why, when, how and who threw you down? 'Coz it shows! sometimes you don't have an explanation....you come up with something weird- just to call it a REASON.
Most people will not and can not understand your reasoning...so they will decide to tag you... The reasonably smart ones will leave the explanation ...definitely give you a dose or two for your uninformed hibernation, but then take on from there. And what a relief...you are so thankful to their expression of sanity...JUST BE! Quite naturally you do not have an explanation to what you did...or what happened. You wanted to and that's why you witnessed it. To bull...with the reason! * conditions apply----All this while you are not intentionally harming somebody!
Again....hearing the same.." oh..look what you have done to your self...you are ignoring your health..."
" why do you want to quit now...." "what made you buy this dress"...."How can you eat like a glutton"...
WHY ASK? you probably know the answer that the other person is going to give..."just being myself...doing what I like...eating what I like..how much I like...JUST LIKE THAT.
Any individual will not have a problem with what he/she is doing, but others will seem to. Beholder has the last word unfortunately....
Back again...when one is up and done..over and out with kicking oneself hard enough...he/she begins to let others do the kicking....only to realize that the first one was better...a little less harsh!
OVER and OUT....."No I'm not letting you kick my butt..."